Let’s be real here. Everyone has had a situation in their lives which makes them feel like it’s the end of the world and it’s never going to get better. Trust me, I’ve had a few... actually, quite a lot.
Let’s take it back to 2013. I was a Debbie downer. I was extremely miserable because everything in my life was going against me. 2013-2014 was by far the worst time of
my life so far. I just wasn’t myself, I was sad and angry all
the time. I’d just finished high school, not knowing what the
hell I wanted to do with my life. My grandad had died, who I loved more than he ever knew.
I had a total of 2 friends! My mum and I weren’t getting along. I had a massive falling out with my dad and didn’t speak to him for about 6 months. I had a haircut that still to this day I get the piss taken out of me for - but my hair has grown now so I don’t really mind.
I was dwelling over this boy I had fancied for god knows how long. I was just sad and lonely. I just thought I was going to be lonely and friendless forever. The 16-17 year old Megan didn’t have much hope for the future. I pushed everyone away. It wasn’t very good at all.
I only have 1 friend from high school that I still see and that’s Lisa and she is one of my bestest friends, everyone needs a Lisa in their lives.
I found it really helpful writing everything I was feeling down in a diary. No one has ever seen what I wrote in this diary. It’s hidden in a secret place! I wrote it from 2014-2016, it was my way of letting everything go. My advice is to write everything you are feeling down. It will help so much and it did make me feel more positive because once I’d written it down, that part was over and I could move on. I struggled talking to people about my feelings so I found writing it down much easier.
The end of 2015 was when it got so much better for me. I passed my driving test and got a car, found a boyfriend who actually liked me back, became an auntie and started to make a few friends at work. If I had told the 2013 me I would achieve all that, I would have laughed and said f*** off. I go by the phrase ‘she believed she could so she did’. If you believe you can do it, you can. If you look at things negatively then most of the time it’s not going to go your way.
Now I’m 22 years old, saving for a deposit for a house! I’ve managed to keep hold of a boyfriend for 3 years (god knows how ahah). I’ve made up with my mum and dad. I have 2 nephews and 1 niece, a Fiat 500, my career at work is going in a positive way and I have started a blog...
So if you take anything from this blog, take this - there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how hard the situation you’re in is, in 6 months, 1 year, 2 years’ time you will look back and think ‘I did it, I survived’. When you can’t find the sunshine, be the sunshine. ☀️
Lots of love
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